Spiritual bypassing

It was a few years later that I went on a large spiritual journey, years and years of awakening. After that awakening proces I reached a stage. The stage of enlightenment, I would think. Because why the hell would I have to walk to so much dark to realize there is more dark. There must be light at the end of the tunnel so when I saw light I held onto it, clung to it. Because please, dear god, may there never be dark again.

But something felt off. I did not feel happy. I did not feel accomplished. My life was not flowing. I was working hard and not reaching much. This made me feel frustrated. In that time I kept on seeing people with yin-yang signs and it annoyed me even more. I felt like there was a stage that could bypass the dark and the light, to a state of peace. And this my friends is called spiritual bypassing. 

How to start a paragraph about spiritual bypassing!? By explaining what I experienced at the time. 

I remember changing my phone background into 'This is the best day ever'. After careful examination of which manifestation quotes would work best for me, I decided on this one. If I would only manifest this every day, I would only have good days. Wow, what a life. I was already excited by the thought of it and had seen that I was able to manifest a lot so why not try to manifest an amaazing life? 

The day that I put that screen was an interesting one, to say the least. When I went to work in the gym suddenly my eyes went upstairs, just on time to witness a guy falling to the glass window screen. It was not too bad, only a small cut in his forehead and after some stitches he was ready to roll again. But it was interesting because there were never any accidents in the gym. When I came home from a long day, my mum was super sick. She was puking and vomiting. She is never sick. So from seeing her being sick I became sick, sick of the thought that she could die. Luckily I still had the nighttime. I had planned to see my friend Jochem perform. 

But on my way there, on a road that I used to bike daily, I saw the most horrible accident that one can witness. A lady was crossing the road, and the car did not see her. Instead of walking back, she speeded up and got hit full-face by the car. She flew up in the sky (no joke), 150 meters and fell down on the middle of the street. I was the lucky one to have witnessed all of it as I was biking past exactly that moment. I screamed. Nohooooooooo. Nohooooooo. When I ran to her, she still had a pulse but later on I heard she had died.

Thus far for my best day ever. So how is this spiritual bypassing?

Spiritual bypassing is the thought that we are already there. That there is nothing to do anymore, nothing to learn. The ego thought that we know what is best for us at all times and can just manifest our way through the day. It is wanting to show that we are spiritually grown and mature, but by doing so keeping other people small that have chosen a different path. It is by thinking that the general rules do not apply to us. We are basically bypassing our lives by living in our head and not accepting what actually is.

So there I was. Sitting in my Sri Lankan borrowed house to realize that I had been spiritually bypassing all this time. It was a bit of a shock and at the same time quite funny.

Because I finally understood better the process that life had tried to show me. And I also was able to face what was happening in reality. I could now look my health problems in the eye and realized they needed some actual changes. I could now see that I was still single at 34 and had no house or partner, also partly due to my own choices in life. And I could now see my own imperfections which helped me to arrive at more peace in my being.